Halloween

So, last week was Halloween. Sans carved the cutest pumpkin ever. I had to work, and he was home for a little bit to hand out candy to the two kids that came to the door. My mom came over and got him for a yummy chili dinner and to hang out with the family.

The next day, I had to go to the doctor's office to get my diabetes checked. My blood sugar has been pretty out of control since the last time I had cancer, in 2003. I think it had something to do with the stem cell transplant and when I had my cells taken, it took the diabetes that I had (because of steroids) and put it into my body as healthy cells.

We have been working for over a year to stabilize my numbers, and it seems that no matter what I do, they just don't change. When I went in on Thursday, we made the choice to start insulin. my sugars were at 249 at fasting. Which is way too high. We talked about how this can affect trying to have a baby. I knew the side effects of getting pregnant and then contracting the disease - high birth weight. I did not know the dangers of getting pregnant without having your blood sugar under control before hand. The baby cn be born with serious heart defects, and very low birth weight.

So, we realized that I really have to regulate my blood sugar - and be very strict about it. BEFORE I can even think about concieving. In January, I have an appointment with my oncologist and we will discuss a plan, mostly to find out if I can even make a child, and then my doctor will send me to a perinatologist (I think) to help me out with everything, and further testing. Because of the stem cell transplant and also my age, they are worried that I may not be able to have children. But I am really lucky to have a doctor that cares enough to help me out and get me healthy first.

I got my cholesterol test results back on Friday. They are pretty outrageous, considering they were fairly good a few months ago. So, not only do I need to go on a very strict low carb diet, but I also need to make sure I have enough fiber to help me battle the cholesterol. I am trying and I am having fun planning my meals and making neat recipes. The shots aren't too bad, just shots. But that's where work can become a problem.

I work on the second floor of a building. The company I work for takes up that second floor. There are at least 800 of us. At least that's what I think. There may be only 400. I drive 30 miles to work and have to transport my insulin already packed in it's syringe. I only have the community fridge to put it in. So, I try to do it as best I can without causing a scene or losing the medication. In order to inject it (the restrooms here are very foul and very filthy), I need to use one of the restrooms that have a privacy cubicle. So far, everything has worked out ok. But I am just waiting until someone decides to come around the cube wall. Or knocks my lunch on the floor while they are trying to get theirs out of the fridge.

I am really lucky to have great managers and supervisors that have been extremely supportive and are helping me in any way they can with this. It makes me feel a lot better about being open about it.

I am also very lucky to have a supportive family and Sans. He has been incredible. Making me food that is low carb, not eating food that would be tempting to me. Making sure I check my blood sugar. Just overall, I am really glad and I am really lucky I married him.

So this is the update so far.