Holidays

Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa, and Happy Festivus! Hope you get everything you want and get to be with the people you want to be with.

And may all your wishes come true in the new year!

December

Sans with his new toy

And me with mine!

I tried to wait until I had a job for an update, but that didn't work out. I am still unemployed. And losing hope. It's very discouraging to think you are more than qualified for a job, only to never even get a call back from anyone. It just makes me crazy and sad and disappointed.

Anyway, moving on. So, I have been back to the most of my doctor's to check things out. I went in for a thyroid ultrasound. The endocrinologist had recommended it because she thought she had found bumps on my thyroid. It turned out negative. No issues with that. She sent me to a diabetic counselor. That was very educational. I have been eating somewhat correctly. There may be a problem with my meds. The next step was to go to Diabetes class.

In the meantime, I also went back to my Fertility doctor. She apologized for the treatment I received from the person on the phone. She explained that she requests that all patients come in to have a consultation for their results. She explained everything in more detail. I will be going into early menopause. All the medication and chemo has aged my eggs by 5-10 years older than they should be. There is a 5% chance of me becoming pregnant, and if I should 50% chance of a miscarriage. It's not a good idea for me to get pregnant, mostly because it could be detrimental to my health. She did recommend donor eggs (more on that later), or a surrogate. More surrogate than donor eggs, but she did say it was up to me. She said once I am ready for a baby to make another appointment to come in and see her and we'll work on a family plan.

On the subject of donor eggs, I have a match! I have a friend, who volunteered her eggs to us when we decide that we want to get pregnant. We have already talked about health history in her family, and how we would let the child know, her role in our family, etc. It was the weirdest thing, but it's so awesome to think that she would sacrifice this for us. Right now, she is pregnant with her own baby, so at least we know she's fertile! She's been an awesome friend and I am just floored that she is so selfless to want to help us with this.

We went to our first diabetic class last Wednesday. I was my usual outgoing self in class, and Sans tried to throw stuff out there (he's so smart!). It was a fun and very interesting class. Unfortunately, Sans has to work during the last two classes, so I will be going to them alone. But, even though we were the youngest in the class by at leas 20 years, everyone seems really friendly and just as puzzled as we are on how to take care of ourselves as far as Diabetes is concerned. I take pretty good notes, and so I should be able to cover everything so Sans can learn at home.

We had a nice Thanksgiving at mom's house, with Grandma, Uncle Allen (hi!), and Greg, his sister and brother in law. We had to leave sort of suddenly, because poor Sans had a bit of an anxiety attack. But we went home and both of us were fine. We don't really have much in the way of plans for out birthdays, except for dinner out with mom and Greg. It will most likely be quite the subdued year. Christmas will again be celebrated in the morning with mom and Greg, and then in the evening with my Aunt Cyndie and her family, and several others. Sans and I have exchanged our big gifts for Christmas already – they were a little too big to hide, and we already knew what they were. Sans is getting pretty good at beginner electric guitar (he played a little before), and I haven't found the right teaching method for me for the electric bass yet. I really want to play it, though.

One last thing before wrapping things up here... I really really want to thank all of my lovely friends for their sweet beautiful thoughts and support. I know I didn't really answer any emails or comment back to anyone. I really appreciate everything that you said and the encouragement and love you gave to me. It's lovely to have such great friends and such wonderful support. Thank you again. I wish good karma for you!

Have a great holiday all of you! I love you guys!